2026 02 03: My B/W Era, an Update
The motivating force for making this post was that Iām currently in a bit of a black/white phase, as a contemplated back then (point one). Itās been fun and I like how itās training me to visualize scenes in a different way than I would normally. Perhaps Iāll make a zine of the work down the road⦠but really, it has me seeing more potential for more thought-out and focused black/white projects.
Traveling (point two) remains my favorite thing to do when time allows. Having just returned from a job down in Louisville, I was able to put one day into my abstract Illinois Wandering project (point three), which led to a few decent images and even more grand ideas. I havenāt yet been able to figure out how to make this practice make money, though perhaps in time the images that are made from the trips will pay off in various ways. Photography as a job is always an abstract journey! While previously the commercial jobs were paying the bills, lately they have been few and far between (point four). Itās stressful financially but has allowed me to explore my own artistic impulses, which is rewarding in other ways.
While you might think the lack of jobs has allowed me huge amounts of free time, the exact opposite has been true, as Iām forced to fill in the gaps with other money-making endeavors (really, itās mostly me scrambling to make enough money to cover my studio rent each month, which is a significant use of my time). Pivoting my career towards video (point five) and/or becoming a āCreative Agencyā has been a serious consideration, but one that Iāve resisted and made a point to avoid if at all possible.
My longer term outlook on the creative field has me continually looking towards art instead of commerce, which likely goes against most peoplesā logic. I see too many headwinds to continue solely down the path of commercial photography without going crazy in the near future. Iād rather scrape by doing things I much rather enjoy.
2026 01 12
Not much to say today, but contemplating bars and my drinking habits as I listen to a Dry January segment on NPR. Iām drinking less than I used to, however, am also far from quitting alcohol. Itās fascinating to consider how human habits can change so relatively quickly and on such a large scale; people are drinking far less and having less sex. While I donāt have any answers as to why this is the case, social media is my immediate suspect. I still love bars myself, I think because they are the perfect solution when my introverted self wants to be social ā I can sit alone in a room of people and observe, or engage and socialize if Iām feeling more adventurous. Either way, the juice dulls my over-stimulated brain so that it resembles something a bit more manageable. Keeping the balance of using vs abusing is where things can get complicated and thereās no doubt many people I know should not touch alcohol no matter what the reason for wanting to.