2026 02 18: Award-Nominated!
I sometimes joke that I’m an “Award-Nominated Photographer.” It’s a cute dig at the world of Serious Photography, while letting you know that I don’t take myself too seriously. That said, I must admit that I’ve been having a bit of regret the last few days over my lack of engagement throughout my career. Living in my own world has its perks, but you gotta play the game a bit sometimes, too.
Early in my career, I attempted to do what you’re supposed to do. I was faced with rejection and made a decision that you can’t lose if you don’t play. This protected my ego for a time, but now that I’m an aging photographer posting to a blog with an audience that’s primarily Chinese ai-Bots, I gotta wonder if it was the right call. Okay, so that’s a harsh assessment. But in many ways, I’m back where I started in my photography career. I’m now focusing on things I want to focus on and doing things I want to do. This is giving me an opportunity, of sorts, to do things differently this time around. One of the things I aim to do is play the game. Not obsessively — I’ll never be that guy — but a little bit. Learn the names; meet the faces; submit to the awards and the grants; attend the shows.
You gotta play the game.
2026 01 31: Cement City
Just a quick note today, as I just returned from four days on the road and need to immediately jump back into studio manager duties. I had an assignment in Louisville that I drove down to, planning to attempt some personal work both on the way down and back. The way down did not go as planned due to the large storm that rolled through the country, however, I was able to squeeze in a bit of personal Illinois Wandering time on the return trip. New photos and plenty of new ideas.
The job went fine, however, it also left a terrible taste in my mouth and has me even more demoralized about my role as a photographer. Long story short: the agency sent along a contract for me to sign while I was already on my way down, thus had zero time to review it. Of course, the contract is one of those “we get all the rights and you can’t use the images for anything, plus you’re somehow finanically liable if anything goes wrong” kinda contracts. I left it in limbo, shot the project, and now I’m home stressing about it and needing to resolve things. Yet another example of why I picked my focus for the year: boring backend tasks. I ignored the legal/logistical side of things because I was more focused on hitting the road and making some new work, and now here we are, suffering the consequences.
Oh yeah, I said this would be a short post!
The only thing I wanted to share was a podcast recommendation! A worthwhile podcast recommendation!
Cement City is an amazing project and shining example of what is possible through longterm dedication to a project. I’m seven episodes in, which I listened to while wandering the small towns of Illinois as a perfect backdrop. I both highly recommend giving it a listen and have been inspired to push my own life towards making a piece that ressonates as much as Cement City has for me.
2026 01 19: Controlled Chaos
This is a visual representation of what my life feels like lately: semi-controlled chaos; rules & regulations; logistics & confusion; planning & plotting.
2026 01 17: Virtual Scouting
The last few days, in my spare time, I’ve been watching a youtube channel from a guy who explores places and does a really nice job of explaining the history and interesting angles (while being super enthusiastic about simple things which also get me excited inwardly). I’ve been enjoying them specifically because it feels a bit more “productive,” in the sense that I’m using the videos as virtual scouting trips covering places I aim to explore and photography myself in the coming years. The videos specific videos are covering areas in UP Michigan, but they also very much remind me of a lot of my own Ill Wandering trips over the last few years.
More on all of these thoughts another day, but for today, here’s a photo from Lincoln, Illinois (which also reminded me I need to dust off, finish, and post my “Plan for a New Illinois” proposal. So much to do…